I apologize for worrying you by not posting any illustrations for a long time.

Due to an underlying mental illness, I lost all motivation for my hobbies and was unable to draw illustrations.

I thought I'd take this opportunity to talk about my mental illness.

summarise, it was exactly three years ago, when I was in the fifth grade. At that time, I was in a severe depression due to family troubles, and at that time, I couldn't go to the hospital because of the family troubles, and it was difficult to ask for help, so my condition worsened. As a result, a year later, at the same time that my family situation was becoming stable, I developed a memory disorder called "dissociative amnesia", which has various patterns and occurs in two patterns: "persistent amnesia" and "localized amnesia". At that time, I suddenly couldn't remember the memories of the traumatic period, and it felt like my life had restarted again. Furthermore, it became difficult to remember new things, and symptoms such as forgetting what was said to me after a few seconds or moving to another place without realising appeared, which caused problems in my studies and relationships.

A year later, when I was in junior high school, my memory disorder improved a little, and I was able to remember new things for a longer period of time, and I was able to remember things for about a week. 2months later, I was able to remember the memories of the traumatic period. However, the memory beca5me a trauma again, and symptoms like complex PTSD started appearing, and flashbacks continued. 5ummarise, it was exactly three years ago, when I was in the fifth grade. At that time, I was in a severe depression due to family troubles, and at that time, I couldn't go to the hospital because of the family troubles, and it was difficult to ask for help, so my condition worsened. As a result, a year later, at the same time that my family situation was becoming stable, I developed a memory disorder called "dissociative amnesia", which has various patterns and occurs in two patterns: "persistent amnesia" and "localized amnesia". At that time, I suddenly couldn't remember the memories of the traumatic period, and it felt like my life had restarted again. Furthermore, it became difficult to remember new things, and symptoms such as forgetting what was said to me after a few seconds or moving to another place without realising appeared, which caused problems in my studies and relationships.

A year later, when I was in junior high school, my memory disorder improved a little, and I was able to remember new things for a longer period of time, and I was able to remember things for about a week. 2months later, I was able to remember the memories of the traumatic period. However, the memory beca5me a trauma again, and symptoms like complex PTSD started appearing, and flashbacks continued. about 5 months later, I managed to regain my sense of self. I was able to stay positive for a while, but I realized that my high school entrance exams were approaching, and I felt extremely anxious that even if I learned something new, it would disappear from my memory after a few weeks. I became very irritable and started hitting things more often. Around February or March of this year, I finally ran out of energy and gave up, thinking that there was nothing I could do about it, and my body stopped moving again, and I couldn't remember my hobbies. I slowly recovered from that, and my negative emotions and physical condition have calmed down. I believe that the most effective way to recover is to calm my mind and return to a mentally healthy state, so I am trying to avoid the current stressors, such as studying. In addition, I think that I will be posting fewer illustrations than before. Please understand. I think that the number of illustrations I post will increase as my mind recovers. Please wait for a while until then. I look forward to your continued support.